Monday, June 30, 2008

Realisation

My tears also know no where to go…they stay confused…dazed…shocked.
Give my reasons back…now
The planes, walks and memories haunt me
They say I am okay…I say I am okay
Truth remains detached
My truths, my lies, my skies and my spaces
I have logic embedded in me but that takes me nowhere
I remain…there.
Voids are replaced with memories...i cling on them...but then
Time has no explanation. It just relaxes and smirks
Talk to me…
I will wait…till then…I remain to get cheated, fooled and lied again.
In the end…it doesn’t really matter!

Friday, June 22, 2007

Fads...


The morn sun would stare at me every morn as if challenging a race. Who finishes the day first? Ha! Mumbai. A week (weak) stay there and you know ‘there’s more to life....’

I was traveling by my usual Dadar-Andheri route. Secluded, stranger and tired is what I was that day. One hand checking regularly whether my cell was with me or no, or had it been robbed, and the second hand holding the handle so that I don’t fall off. I was busy. Too busy to notice anything around me. A glance here and there would give me an opportunity to catch someone looking at me since a long time. Strange. Ladies compartment? Oh…I did not know that this was so common here. But then she looked at me in a very strange manner. Again, I checked for my mobile and this time even wallet. All’s safe. Through that maddening train crowd of 4 pm, I could only see her eyes. I am not much of an eye reader but there was something fixing in her gaze. As if asking me, something.

I looked at her perplexed. I wanted to rush and help her. Wanted to give her a tight hug and tell her, ‘everything is going to be alright’. Suddenly, the bubbly teenager blocking our view, shifted. Now I could look at her fully. She was in tatters. Beggar. I am too civilized to use that word. She was from the under privileged strata of Bhaarat. The ones for whom the ruling party always has brilliant ‘plans’ and the opposition always has better. Phew! Shitty…!! What does the government do about these people. Some organization is planning to revamp Dhaaravi. Why don’t they just let them be? Stop interfering in their lives. There are enough of other problems that need to be addressed right now. The Indo-US nuke deal will not change the life of a person standing in the ration line or the coin shortage in Kolkata. The beg…oops…the under privileged ones did a good business at the recent coin shortage in Kolkata. They sold their coins for some more extra bucks. Wow!! Now that is a brilliant move. First you ask for the coins (begging), and then there is a shortage, after this you sell the same coins for extra coins. Clink, clink, clink!!

Taps. Shilpa did tap in the UK bazaar with quite a force. Britishers have started to sing ‘chura ke dil mera..goriya chali’. Now that the Queen has praised our Queen Bee, the Indo-UK relations are gearing up. Now we need a Pakistan reality TV show, where we could send Ayub Khan! You will soon know who Ayub Khan is, once he goes for the Bade Miyan Show. Forget Kargil, and we will have better relations. Soon the nut, Ayub, will be taking decisions about Kashmir. Addha ise do, adha usse do. Mamla khatam! Who cares if the next president of India will be a woman. Political moves. India has no other ‘pratibha’ other than being the ‘first-me’. Making a big deal out of everything. Stop competing with the ‘super powers’. There is only one super power. Almighty. Do meditation daily, practice Tai Chi, do Reiki and follow the Art of Living.

Taps. ‘Pass me the Mid Day’, says a commuter. ‘Yes sure,’ I say. I need my daily dose of Mid Day at least for the time I am in Mumbai. Oh, that beggar, must have gotten off after I blasted on her when she tried to tap me for coins while I was reading about the country. Jai Hind!

(Pic courtesy: AP)

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Treed Creed


I was five, he was sticks…he was there in a distant place and I rested in my room…I grew he grew…we had all the seasons in common…I loved the winters…he loved the springs… when I first saw him…there was nothing very beautiful in him that can be remembered and talked about…still he had the charm…I wanted to hug him tight…I did once…the unspoken words of his…hissed with the winds blowing through…the raindrops told no stories of our secret affair…all was kept quiet…the messages were sent to each other giving the performance of an affair which had blank sounds…blank expressions…I received his love letters every morn…I read them with dew in my eyes…a small bird like thing which lives a day…would come and smile at me…shying she seemed to mock us…as if saying… “some time”…he did not seem to mind that…he continued with his expressing of love…he would send the letters even when I would be sleeping in my room…they would come floating in my room…I saw him wither and bloom…still he did not stop sending me the letters…I bloomed too…time went by…our love increased with every single flower gifted…then!!!...one day…just as one that day has to come for every one…all ended…the woodcutter came and chopped him.

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

deword me

Deword me...

I

empathise on the self.

W i l d g l a n c e s
and
S t r a y s m e l l sss

Nothing gets channelized

into an unknown entity...


Words lose their self everyday

I know no nothings now.

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

said

Gazing at the nothingness
and dreams go relentless
Stop! Says someone
I wait at a horizon
Words shatter
Why do I falter?

As ever, words seem divorced
As ever, humor is attached
As ever, its better to be silenced
As ever, its better to be

unknown source

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time
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